Bailing out
(Tuesday, February 20, 2007)
The logical half of me is willing to sacrifice even for a little bit longer, but the conscientious one has clearly made its brutal point. It's one of those it's-not-you-it's-me situations. And if I'm the problem here, then I have to fix myself first. Distance is needed. To be honest, even though I'm still thinking things over, I'm quite decided already.
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Everything isn't fine where I stand right now. So I'm breaking into a song:
"I wish that I could fly
Into the sky
So very high
Just like a dragonfly
I'd fly above the trees
Over the seas in all degrees
To anywhere I please
Oh I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah
Oh I want to get away
I want to fly away
Yeah yeah yeah"
Me? Good? No, I'm just indifferent.
(Wednesday, February 07, 2007)
Indifference to everything will get me nowhere. It's working now, but for how long? Besides, I can sense their waning tolerance for me too. Well, the feeling is mutual. I'm just buying some time and saving up, then away I go.