Almost 2006
(Saturday, December 31, 2005)
It'll be 2006 in a few hours. Inspite of my be-damned nega moods lately, I'm wishing everyone a happy new year because I want to start this year right and cheery! May this be a great year for all of us. Yay! And please, please, don't loose any apendages tonight. I love looking at fireworks as much as the next person, but I don't want it blasting someone to smitherins. And I absolutely hate the smoke and cruddy gun powder pollution too, so there.
Our house is clean including the bathroom, kitchen , and drawers (thanks to me, nyaha). I don't get it, I just cleaned before Christmas and yesterday it was filfthy as Grimmauld Place again. Oh well, nothing like kicking off the new year with good hard labor. And I made an extra special fruit salad earlier too. Wow. I'm so domestic. Mahaha!
I think I might have a crush on Emma Watson. And I want a brand new deck of Trump Cards to play with. Teehee.
Real horrorshow, my brothers!
(Friday, December 30, 2005)
I viddy `tis a fine night for lashings of ultra-violence, my dear brothers! A bit of lubbilubbing with a malchickiwick and tolchocking some bratchny devotchkas. Yes! Real choodessny! This is a nadsat's life! Oh my brothers! Oh my Bog!
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Magbabagong taon na hindi pa rin ako nagbabago. Masama pa rin ugali ko. Masama pa rin akong anak. Demanding pa rin akong kapatid. Tamad pa rin ako. Bossy pa rin ako. Matakaw pa rin ako. Hindi pa rin ako mahilig magbigay ng regalo. Wala pa rin akong na-a-achieve sa buhay. Wala pa rin akong pwedeng ipagmalaki na kahit ano. Loser pa rin ako. Wala man lang akong mga bagong bagay na natutunan o nasubukang gawin ngayong taon. Wala pa rin akong importanteng mga pag-aari. Wala pa rin akong pera. Wala pa ring nagmamahal sa akin. Hindi pa rin ako nagbabasa ng dyaryo araw-araw. Hindi pa rin ako naglilinis ng bahay. Hindi pa rin tapos ang thesis namin. Ma-drama pa rin ako. OA pa rin ako. Negative pa rin ako. Mahilig pa rin akong mag-self-pity. Ano nang mangyayari sa akin?! Paano ako makakapagbayad ng bills namin kung hindi ako makaka-graduate at makakpagtrabaho?! Paano ako mabubuhay nito?!
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Kanina habang nag-ro-rosary kami napaisip ako "nasaan na kaya si Tio Donald ngayon? Naririnig niya kaya yung mga dasal namin?" Tapos napaisip pa ulit ako "ako kaya, paano mamatay?" Magkakasakit din kaya ako? Kung magkakasakit ako, may mag-aalaga kaya sa akin hanggang mamatay ako? O baka naman maaksidente ako isang araw habang naglalakad papuntang Quiapo? May tutulong kaya sa akin o baka nakawan pa ako habang nakabulagta ako at duguan sa kalsada? Aabot kaya ako sa hospital o dead-on-arrival? Saan kaya ang wake? Sa Arlington din kaya? Baka wala ng pera pang burol sa akin. Ililibing din kaya ako sa Holy Cross o i-cre-cremate ako? Mas gusto ko kasi cremation e. Mahal kasi bumili ng lot sa mga sementeryo e. May magdadasal din kaya para sa akin araw-araw? May magtitirik din kaya ng kandila? May iiyak kaya? Totoo kaya yung iyak nila? Ma-mi-miss kaya ako ng mga tao? May bibisita pa kaya sa puntod ko or sa crematorium? Pupunta kaya ako ng langit? O hindi? Hmmm.
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Binalik ko kanina yung panget at sira na mp3 player. Yech. LSS ko yung Gulong ng Palad na kanta. Yech.
Happy Christmas, one and all!
(Monday, December 26, 2005)
Merry Christmas! And OMG I can't stop eating! I've been stuffing my face all day with noche buena leftovers, random sandwiches, bananas, and a assortment of sweets. But it's all good. Especially the bibingka mother brought me, gawd it was delish. Yurrrm. But now I can't move much. Too bloody (but jolly) bloated. Hohoho ^o^
My highschool friends and I went to Marikina last Friday to have "dinner" (such a queer word, you would think we're going to some hoity toity resto for some fine dining). Actually, we ate in quasi-dampa around the riverbanks. Mura na, masarap pa. Malamig yung gabi at may fireworks pa sa di kalayuan kaya masarap magmun-muni sa may damuhan. Naglaro rin kami sa perya. Hahaha. Nanalo kami ng badminton set, juice, and isang cermic na bowl na napunta lahat kay Lovely. Hahaha. Napagnilayan namin kung gaano na kami katanda at para sa iba, napagusapan din ang (some failed, some successful) love life. Tapos binigyan ako ni Geno ng isang malupet na advice tungkol sa aking malungkot na buhay, best one I've heard in days (and from a guy). Mahal ko mga kaibigan ko. Hindi man kami madalas nagkikita yung minsan naming get together makes-up for it.
Natatawa ako kay Steven Seagal. Mahahaha! Pa-oriental kuno. Sabi ng Tatay ko bakla raw siya. Mahahahaha! (Nakup! Baka makasuhan ako ng libel nito. LOL)
I know it's holidays and it's improper to be worrying these days but I can't help it. Natatakot talaga ako sa thesis namin. Sobra.
Quizzies!
(Monday, December 19, 2005)
| You Are a Tinsel Tree |
For you, Christmas is no different than the rest of the year.
And this means you do things your own way - and continue to surprise people. |
I'm a tinsel? 0_0
| You Are a Losing Lottery Ticket! |
Full of hope and promise.
But in the end, a cheap letdown. |
Figures. 0_0
| You Were Nice This Year! |
You're an uber-perfect person who is on the top of Santa's list.
You probably didn't even *think* any naughty thoughts this year.
Unless you're a Mormon, you've probably been a little too good.
Is that extra candy cane worth being a sweetheart for 365 days straight? |
They say nice people finish last. But who cares? ^_^
| You Are Blitzen |
Always in good spirits, you're the reindeer who loves to party down with Santa.
Why You're Naughty: You're always blitzed on Christmas Eve, while flying!
Why You're Nice: You mix up a mean eggnog martini. |
| Your 1920's Name is: |
Ivy Wilhelmina |
LOL. Call me Wilhelmina from now on.
| Slow and Steady |
Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. |
Somehow I don't believe this.
| You Are Mud Pie |
You're the perfect combo of flavor and depth
Those who like you give into their impulses |
Pie. Yum.
| The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy |
In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh.
You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum.
Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho |
Wheee! I love The Royal Tenenbaums! ^_^
| Your Pimp Name Is... |
Peachy Shagswell |
Mahahaha!
| Your Monster Profile |
Omega Beheader
You Feast On: Pickles
You Lurk Around In: Sewers
You Especially Like to Torment: Republicans |
More mahahahaha!
| On Average, You Would Sell Out For |
$1,074,517 |
Ang mura naman nyan.
| Your Inner Child Is Surprised |
You see many things through the eyes of a child.
Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.
You cherish all of the details in life.
Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things. |
Awww. LOL.
| Your Career Type: Artistic |
You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.
You would make an excellent:
Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor
The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary. |
Close enough.
| Your 2005 Song Is |
Feel Good Inc by Gorillaz
"Love forever love is free.
Let's turn forever you and me."
In 2005, you were loving life and feeling no pain. |
I don't believe this quiz.
| You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish |
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
Eunuch! LOL.
| You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament |
Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.
It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.
At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment. |
True, true. Alas.
He's hot you know. Fast and furious.
| Your Hidden Talent |
You are both very knowledgeable and creative.
You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential.
Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them.
As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there. |
Not so hidden now, is it? Maha.
| You are |
 |
Mahaha!
| You Are 60% Weird |
You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?
But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks! |
60% lang? LOL.
| You Are |
A Distressed Pumpkin Face
You would make a good pumpkin pickle. |
Mahaha! Natawa ako. Mahaha!
| You Are Somewhat Machiavellian |
You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to! |
| You Are a Strawberry Daiquiri |
You're a fun, playful drinker who loves to party.
You may get totally wasted, but you're always a happy drunk! |
Untrue. I don't like to party. I like to get drunk.
| You Are 20 Years Old |
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
OMG! I act my age! Nakakainis!
| Arty Kid |
Whether you were a drama freak or an emo poet, you definitely were expressive and unique.
You're probably a little less weird these days - but even more talented! |
Hopefully.
| Cheese Pizza |
Traditional and comforting.
You focus on living a quality life.
You're not easily impressed with novelty.
Yet, you easily impress others. |
Yum. Cheese.
| You're A Passed Out Drunk |
Drinking gives you that warm fuzzy feeling, until you're thrown in the back of a police car... |
I pass out only occassionally. Really.
| In a Past Life... |
You Were: A Happy Go Lucky Mathematician.
Where You Lived: Saudi Arabia.
How You Died: In Childbirth. |
Mas gusto ko yung KIND CANNIBAL. Nawala. Kainis. LOL.
| You Should Learn French |
C'est super! You appreciate the finer things in life... wine, art, cheese, love affairs.
You are definitely a Parisian at heart. You just need your tongue to catch up... |
Narci. Mahaha!
| Your French Name is: |
Alavda Proust |
Proust was an author, right?
| You Were a Giraffe |
You are a high achiever - able to reach things others can't.
A great communicator, you are good at getting past superficialities. |
Ngerk. Giraffes are boring, I think.
| You Passed 8th Grade Science |
Congratulations, you got 8/8 correct! |
Hurrah!
| You are a Believer |
You believe in God and your chosen religion.
Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..
Your convictions are strong and unwavering.
You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone. |
Of course I believe my God. But I'm more spritual than religious.
Happy "Christsmas" ^_^
(Sunday, December 18, 2005)
Naalala ko yung mahiwagang wrong-spelling cake last class Christmas party. Saya nun. Dami pa pagkain. Mahal ko classmates ko. Salamat sa Elements of Style na bigay ni Leng (and earrings na bigay ni Meri kahapon). ^_^ Sayang hindi ako nagstay ng matagal, have to beat my parents home.
Saya rin ng Christmas party kina Sir Lito kagabi. Tawang tawa ako kay Royce. Ahahaha! At ang cute cute ni Anya, ang mataba at tamad na poodle ni sir. Got Sputnik Sweetheart from Cze. Yay! Actually yun rin ung binigay ko kay Badet at nabasa ko na siya, pero ayus lang kasi gusto ko rin magkaroon ng sariling copy. ^_^ Salamt din sa ibang nagbigay sa akin ng regalo. Good haul this year. LOL.
Sana Christmas break na.
Title-less na lang.
(Saturday, December 17, 2005)
My uncle, Donaldo, died last December 12. The interment was earlier today. I miss my Tatay Ducky. T_T
On a lighter note, party at sir Lito's house later and Ate Cha gave me the best Christmas present ever (well, as of pen time that is, I'm hoping for more), I got me A Clockwork Orange!!! Woohoo!!! *Kendengs*
Hindi pa ako umuuwi. LOL.
(Sunday, December 11, 2005)
Crush ko yung layout ko. Mahaha! Ang gwapo nung lalake, no? Pwedeng boyfriend. Crush ko na rin si Ping Medina (little Pen Medina. Mahaha!) Nakup! Kailangan ko na tuloy subaybayan ang Etheria. Ehehe. Ganda-ganda ng "Ang pagdadalaga ni Maximo Oliveros." Saya, nakapunta kami ng premier, nakita namin in person yung actors at ang magandang scriptwriter na si Michiko Yamamoto. Tae, ang gwapo ni Ping lalo pag maiksi buhok niya. Uy, panoorin nyo ang Pagdadalaga!
Ito ang linggo ng puyatan. Ack. My skin is flaking!
Ngayon wala na sa landas ko ang Ustetika pwede na akong bumalik sa pag-aaral. Gusto ko nang matapos ang thesis. Hay.
THE 21ST USTETIKA ANNUAL AWARDS FOR LITERATURE
POETRY
1st Place: "Our Feet on the Word Welcome"
Author: Karen Ann C. Capco
2nd Place: "Collect Them All"
Author: Keith Bryan T. Cortez
3rd Place: (No collective title)
Author: Alessandra Rose F. Miguel
ESSAY
1st Place: "Healing Hands of Love"
Author: Ma. Chrizelda B. Bernil
2nd Place: "Why I Will Not Leave for the US"
Author: Emmanuel M. Rentoy
3rd Place: "My Brother’s Small Butt"
Author: Timothy Ernest John A. Javier
3rd Place: "Duende, Deadlines, and One Thousand Golden Buddhas"
Author: Chuck D. Smith
FICTION
1st Place: "An Introduction to the Luminescent"
Author: J. Pocholo Martin B. Goitia
2nd Place: "Late Afternoon Chat"
Author: Leah Raquel P. Ranada
3rd Place: "And the Rains Come Down"
Author: Myla Jasmine U. Bantog
SANAYSAY
1st Place: (No winner)
Author:
2nd Place: (No winner)
Author:
3rd Place: (No winner)
Author:
Honorable mention: "Kontemplasyon ng Balahurang Estudyante sa Tapat ni Benavides"
Author: Karren Renz P. Sena
KATHA
1st Place: "Supling Ng Liwanag"
Author: April Camille K. Banzon
2nd Place: "Pila"
Author: Priscilla Anne R. Cabuyao
3rd Place: "Takipsilim"
Author: Joyce Ann D. Macatuno
TULA
1st Place: (No winner)
Author:
2nd Place: "Tahimik na Pagitan"
3rd Place: (No winner)
Author:
Honorable mention: "Ang Nakabalot na Punla (At Iba Pang Tula)"
Author: Julfe T. Rabe
Honorable mention: "Paghahabi ng Kapalaran"
Author: Bienvenido M. Rebullido, II
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This is my extended message:
Congrats to all the winners and to the Parangal Hagbong recipients! Galing. Palakpakan. Thank you too, for inspiring me to continue with my own creative pursuits. Thanks JT, for being such a patient, hard-working, and funny co-chairperson. Mayaman ka pa sa load kaya ayus. (Go PMKNCB-Org! Kami rin Chairpersons nyan. LOL) Thank you, V-staff for bearing and cooperating with us. Thank you, EB for the opportunity and trust. Thank you, judges, for well, judging the entries. Thank you, God, for making it all happen. It wasn't perfect but it was good enough for me at least. Yesssssssssssss! Tapos na! *dances around*
PS:
Sa mga hindi pumunta, sayang. Masarap pa naman yung pagkain at maganda yung stage at sosyal yung certificates. LOL.
PSS: Mahal ko ang magandang diwata at si be-spectacled boy. Akin na lang kayo. Pramis, aalagaan ko kayo. Sige na.
I can't sleep so I'll rave about the 90s
(Friday, December 09, 2005)
Since hindi naman ako inaantok, mag-po-post na lang ulit ako.
Masarap talagang magsulat ng tahimik at walang nakikialam o nang iistorbo syo (ang contrasting yata yung mga posts ko. Labo ko naman. Letse). Hay. Sana ganito sa bahay namin. Tahimik lang, malamig, at mabilis internet. Hindi rin masama kung may pagkain sa tabi ko. Uy gising na sina MJ at Badet. Bumalik na rin si Laurence. Hehe. Gising na sila hindi pa ako natutulog. Hala.
Random thought (pagbigyan ang walang magawa at hindi makatulog):
Why I love the 90s.- Formnative time ito para sa akin.
- Pinoy band breakouts! (E-heads, The Teeth, Grin Department et. al)
- Nahilig ako sa music. Siyempre kasama na dun ung Backstreet Boys at iba pang kabaduyan, pero at least nakilala ko rin ang Nirvana, Pantera, Pearl Jam et. al.
- Pagputok na quasi-artistic culture ng mga Pinoy. Nak.
- Madaming long-hair! Woohoo!
- Astig ang mga palabas sa TV. Maaksyon. May romance. May comedy. May nakakaiyak. Hindi pang-tanga. (Or dahil bata pa ako nun kaya akala ko hindi pang-tanga yun. Hmmm.)
- Nasa gitna ito ng makaluma (mga tipong uso pa rin luksong tinik) at makabagong panahon (may Family Computer na ako nito).
- Nakilala ko ang mahiwagang internet.
- Nakapanood ako ng anime at nalaman kong astig ang mga Hapon.
- Pwede na akong manood sa sinehan.
- Nagsimula akong magbasa ng seryoso kahit hindi seryoso mga binabasa ko. ^_^
- Naisip kong pwede akong magsulat.
Masama talagang nagpupuyat. Nakakatigyawat na nga, napapa-drama ka pa ng hindi oras. Kanina lang pinagtatawanan namin ni Laurence yung mga luma at kabaduyang sentai tulad ng Changeman, SunVulcan, at JAKQ (hanapin nyo sila, shiyet, nakakatawa talaga!) pero ngayon bigla akong nalungkot. Labo. Siguro kasi nakikinig ako ng mga ka-emohang kanta, na-trigger yata. Sabagay maraming beses na rin naman nangyari `to habang lasing ako at hindi na makakita ng diretso. Bigla na lang ako mapapaisip ng mga kaputahang bagay tulad ng pag-ibig at kabiguan (shiyet, lalim, men) tapos siyempre medyo maiiyak-iyak pa ko. Minsan pa nga nagsulat pa yata ako ng tula sa gusot na yellow pad e. Hmmm. Di kaya lasing ako ngayon? Sana nga lasing na lang para at least masisisi ko yun alak. (Note to self: kailangang maglasing sa lalong madaling panahon!) Tanong lang. Masama ba talagang mangarap ng mga mabababaw na bagay na alam mo naman na hindi na mangyayari?
Tulog na ang mga tao dito sa V. Yung iba umalis na. Si Shar at ako na lang gising at nag-ta-type. Naka-repeat yung "I Miss You" ng Incubus sa EB computer. Wala pang nag-te-text sa akin (forward o random message). Walang nangungumusta kung buhay pa ko. Walang nagbabawal sa akin na mag over-puyat. Namamaho pa ako. Mukhang ganito na talaga buhay ko. Hindi sa nagrereklamo. Nalulungkot lang.
Sige, sige laban maskoman! Ipagtanggol ang kapayapaan! Sugod, sugod laban maskoman pagsanggalan ninyo ang katarungan! Waaah! Childhood! Ibalik nyo ang Maskman!!!
Ang JASON SQUADRON!
Michael Joe (Red Mask) - Jeff
Lenard (Black Mask) - JT
Adrian (Blue Mask) - Shar
Eloisa (Yellow Mask) - Palo
Mary Rose (Pink Mask) - Glaiza
Director Sagata - Jason
Rio (Ial) - MJ
Ako ang malanding si Pink Mask. Aura Power! Mahahaha! Kawawa naman ang mga bata ngayon hindi nila naabutan ang napaka-lupet na Maskman, Bioman, at Mask Rider Black. Husay ng 90s talaga! Kailangan mamemorize ang komplikadong Bioman pose with matching colored explosion. Mahahaha!
Taena. Sumasakit tyan ko sa frosty. Taena.
Dandandaaaan!
(Saturday, December 03, 2005)
Deliberation Night na. Excited ka? Hindi. Takot ka? Oo. Ewan. Sana manalo yung mga dapat manalo. Sana wala ng plagiarist. Sana hindi ako mautot na lang bigla mamaya habang kumakain kami. Sana makakain ako. Basta natatakot lang ako.
Salamat po God sa lahat. I leave everything to you.
